Tired

I have been so tired lately all I want to do is lay down & sleep. I do fine until I slow down & then exhaustion just overwhelms me. And the headaches, ow. I haven't had headaches like this for a very long time. So, when I complain -- murmur -- everyone tells me it's stress. Well, yes, I've been under a lot of stress lately, but …

Yesterday I went to Logan with Nick. He wanted to go to the Verizon store & order the brand new phone that was just released online yesterday. Today he is pacing, driving me nuts, waiting for the FedEx man to deliver his phone.

Anyway, at the Verizon store we had an incredibly long wait. I finally got a chance to sit down on their little padded bench that only holds 2 people. I looked at the floor longingly & thought I would be happy if I could just curl up on the floor in the fetal position & go to sleep. But even though I fantasized about the possibility, I knew a 60-year-old woman would never be able to get down there, much less curl up in the fetal position. For one thing, I'm too stiff, for another, I'm too fat. And can you imagine the furor it would have caused?


I don't know what this thing about age is. I was 50 for years before Mother finally informed me I was 55, not 50. But my age has suddenly come to the forefront of my mind again. How can I be 60 years old? I still feel like I'm in my 40s, not elderly.

Anyway, back to being tired. Last night I woke up in the middle of the night. I never wake up in the middle of the night. I was so tired, I couldn't sleep. I even went to bed before my usual bedtime of midnight. But while I lay there awake, I could hear my C-Pap machine was making a noise it doesn't usually make. I wondered if it was my mask. But I felt all around it & couldn't feel any air coming out. Finally, the exhaustion overtook me & I fell asleep, but not before I had scooted clear over into the crack between the frame & the mattress. Don doesn't like the air blowing on him. I wondered how many nights it had been making this whooshing noise.night

This morning I woke up & the first thing I did was take my mask off & look at it. I still couldn't see anything in the light of day, but last night I had wondered about the clips that hold the cushions onto the mask. In fact, I had pushed the clips on the side, but had forgotten there was a clip at the bottom. I pushed the clip at the bottom & heard a distinct click. Ah-ha. I didn't get all the clips pushed on the last time I cleaned my mask, and now I don't remember what day that was. It could have been last Saturday or 2 weeks ago. I put the mask back on, turned on the machine & no more whooshing.

But, looking for a picture to enhance my blog entry, I discovered Amazon sells CPAP supplies cheap!! Maybe I can afford a new mask at those prices.

While he was at ComputerWise, I took a picture of the mountains to the east.

East mountains of Cache Valley, 3000 N. Main, 5/19/11