Snippets of song lyrics just kind of randomly pop into my head. Tonight I was visiting with Mother & she is so confused, depressed & just plain negative. So, as I left her house tonight the America song, "Sister Golden Hair," just blared into my mind ...
Well I tried to make it Sunday
but I got so damned depressed
It's Sunday, but my depression isn't caused by a man & trying to decide on marriage! Is this a direct contradiction to my last post, "Just another day in paradise?" No, not really. Is my depression situational or clinical? Is it caused by my son, my mother & I guess life in general? Or is it clinical depression or soft bipolar or whatever I have? I just want to sit here & bawl.
Sunday means nothing to my sons. Don-Mike goes out to the bone (car junk) yard & gets parts for his car. He comes in all psyched because he's made definite progress on his project, Nick's Christmas Jeep, that he didn't want & sold to Don-Mike.
The "boys" are now off to see the movie "Wolverine." I won't go to a movie on Sunday, even if it is "The Sound of Music," which I dearly love, or "Night at the Museum II," which I want to see. There's nothing wrong with shopping or going to movies or whatever on Sunday as long as I don't have to do it. To me, the Sabbath is the seventh day the Lord talks about in Exodus. It is one of the Ten Commandments. He devotes 4 verses to this commandment, explaining it. It has been a big internal fight to even go out to eat on Sunday or buy gas. Yes, it can always be explained away by Luke 1:5
“And answered them saying, Which of you shall have an ass or an ox fallen into a pit, and will not straightway pull him out on the sabbath day?"
But how is a movie a life or death situation?
A short update on church callings. Don & I have been in the library almost 2 years now. I have the calling, along with another lady that is a nurse & works every other Sunday. Sometimes she comes in, sometimes she doesn't, so Don has just taken it upon himself to be my helper in the library. He's never received that calling. He has a calling to be the ward web page specialist, but has never done anything with it. Something I'd love to do. He needs the password & hasn't ever got it. He also teaches the 4th Sunday Priesthood lesson in Elders Quorum.
The lady preparing the Sunday program every Sunday has been trying to get out of that calling for the last couple of years, finally about 3 months ago, she just quit. The bishop's wife, who is also the Relief Society secretary, & has two small children, took the job.
About a month ago, Debbie was complaining that she didn't like getting the program on Saturday afternoon, she liked it earlier in the week like she'd been getting. I told one of the counselors in the bishopric that Debbie would like to do the program herself. He turned to her & asked her. She said she wouldn't mind. So, he went right down & talked to the bishop, within 30 minutes he was back & said the bishop wanted to talk to her. I said, as she left, "There's your new calling." She came back & yes, it was. She had accepted it. She's been doing it for 3 weeks.
Today, the bishop said they were going to release her, they didn't want to double people up on their callings. I asked him to do me a favor & call Don to work in the library. He was surprised & asked Don if he had never been called to work in the library. Don said no. So, he said he would.
I wasn't sure what to have. I thought of what we had in the freezer. I baked hamburger patties with gravy & opened a couple of cans of corn. Mother had a gallon of potato salad that she has gallantly been eating since Sunday, July 11. It is still good, but after 2 weeks of eating potato salad, it's getting old. So, I decided to perk it up a little. I added sour cream, honey mustard & boiled eggs. For dessert we had Deseret vanilla pudding. I followed the directions, only added a banana and some plums. For some reason, it didn't turn out very good. It was the first time we'd had it. I'll try it again.
